*I write these blog posts from my heart..about my work with the First Nations People, about my teachers such as Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, about my time spent with terminally ill patients, about life off the grid in northern New Mexico. Though in some ways, I write for myself, I try always to share information and experiences that may be helpful to others, that are universal.
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When despair grows in me
and I wake in the middle of the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting for their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
I started to write this the night before the ‘election’ but I felt too discouraged..too exhausted from the hate and anger that was reaching out and poisoning everyone and everything. But now that the ‘election is over, I want to write something about what I believe REALLY MATTERS or should matter to all of us and that is the Land, Nature, the Earth~ Our Home.
So I’m not going to say very much about the election or politics-I’ve never felt that was the way to creating a better world anyway and although there may have been some positive changes made in the past, they seem mostly negative to me ie: there have been so many school shootings and other mass killings during this past administration that people have come to think of this as the norm.
And I am posting a film below which I think is relevant and important. I came across it when I was researching the candidates running for president, one in particular and in my research, much of what is in this film came to light. *This information is not hidden from people, it is easy to find and though horrifying, repulsive,and disgusting, it is true. I guess you have to take ‘the red pill’ [as in The Matrix] to watch it. “The red pill and its opposite, the blue pill, are popular culture symbols representing the choice between embracing the sometimes painful truth of reality (red pill) and the blissful ignorance of illusion (blue pill).”
This Spanish phrase certainly applies as you’ll see if you watch the film, “Conspiracy of Silence :” Dime con quien te juntas…. Y te dire quien eres! which means “Tell me who your friends are and I’ll tell you who you are.”
PURIFICATION/THE WORLD THAT MATTERS
And so as Anishnabe Elder, Dave Courchene said a month ago when speaking to a group of elders and chiefs in Manitoba: “Prepare for the hard times that are coming. Don’t waste time in trying to fight a system that will not change. Rebuild yourself, your families and your nation, with your way of life the Creator has given you.”
And these are the words I am living by, now in these very difficult times on Earth.
This morning when I got up it was pretty cold so I made a fire in the wood stove and then I walked outside in the early morning light and the air smelled like pine and wood smoke….The Purification from all the negativity..back to basics..back to the land….back to what is common to all of us no matter the culture, race or religion…we come from.
I have always felt connected to nature. Every summer from my baby years..
til I was 16, I spent at my grandparent’s summer cottage, called Avon Lodge on Lake Michigan. When summer came, my cousins and I would ride in my grandmother’s purple Cadillac, feeling so excited, as she drove us from suburban Chicago to the cottage, taking the old road that goes along the lake. The first time we could see the lake was ‘the moment’ and the minute we arrived at Avon, we took our shoes off and ran down to the beach, to touch the water.
I go back there often in my dreams.
So nature has often healed me from the pain caused by the humans in my life and lately from the outside world. And it can heal us all.
For many years I lived in Texas-in Dallas, Houston, Galveston, Austin and finally in the Texas Hill Country. For the last several years that I was in the Hill Country, I lived in very remote area “far from the madding crowd”
Then 7+ years ago I moved to a small, rural, mountain community in northeastern New Mexico and life changed again. I bought property that was off the grid and although I had lived in a rural setting in Texas, now I was living even more closely connected with nature: depending on the Sun for electricity, the wood for heat which I love …I could never go back to an electric, on the grid home.
I learned a lot the first few years I was here: about solar energy, about growing food, about living in tune with the seasons and about living in a multicultural community and as a way of bringing all of this together, my son and I set out to make a documentary about sustainable living and the culture of northern New Mexico. The result was ON THE LAND~Together with the Earth.
As we interviewed people who represented the 3 primary cultures of northern New Mexico: Native American/Pueblo, Hispanic and Anglo, we brought together a lot of practical information as well as the wisdom of the elders, the art…
and the music
We put the stories of those we interviewed in chapter form. Some of the chapter titles are
“You Can’t Eat Money”
Taos Pueblo artist Jonathan Warm Day “Together with the Earth”
“Abuelito and the Beanfield ~The messages of our ancestors are always around if we will only open our hearts to listen
“Build to the Sun~ If you juggle, you can deal with anything”
I write about this now because I believe that in the future many more people will choose to live this way or they may have no other choice. Many of the people who have seen On the Land have told me that it took them back to their childhoods, to memories of their grandparents, to what really mattered..to a simpler and more beautiful time.
Last night when I got tired of writing, I made a fire in the wood stove-this is one of favorite things about winter here: sitting in my fur covered rocking chair, watching the fire- and I thought this blog contains both the beautiful and simple things in life and the ugliest [the film: Conspiracy of Silence] It’s the choice I guess we all have…which life to live…and whether to take the red pill or the blue pill.
Conspiracy of Silence is a 56-minute unreleased documentary film produced by Yorkshire Television in 1994. It implicates many government officials in positions of power..the trail leads all the way to the White House. This is about the past but it is happening in the present. It is happening NOW.
The subject of the film is an alleged child sexual abuse ring involving a number of prominent Nebraska persons, including Lawrence King, an Omaha banker, political fundraiser, and convicted felon.
The documentary was scheduled for broadcast in the United States on cable outlet Discovery Channel on May 3, 1994.
However, it was never aired. Proponents of the film claim that it was withdrawn due to political pressure; neither Yorkshire Television nor Discovery Channel commented officially on why it was not aired.