MY FIRST SELFIE and Why I Don’t Stand Up For The Anthem [they’re connected]

wolf selfie 2*If you’re an American patriot, you probably won’t like this post

“What the indigenous people have always said …. is to treat the land with respect because out of that respect comes all that we need to live and to survive and also comes the knowledge to help us understand how sacred life is, how sacred each of us are. All life has a purpose, all life has meaning and we are all connected,  we are all related,  we are all one in the eyes and the love of our Great Spirit. When we can understand that I believe that’s when we will achieve that harmony and that peace that many of us are searching for.

~Elder Dave Courchene, Eagle Clan, Anishnabe Nation

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This hell on earth we’ve made of the planet has a silver lining of sharp-edged, shared and awakening awareness of the danger to our future.

These travails of our own making can be our undoing or transformation…..

Yet in you and I is a potential seed of a better humanity, ….. it’s time for the prophecies of a new humanity to be proclaimed.

~John Hogue/Hogue Prophecy

I never take selfies….. I actually hate them but last night I thought maybe I need to do one for my Facebook profile picture [which for a while, has been a small green alien] so this morning I found my winter wolf attire and I took these photos above. I don’t have a cell phone so this is the best I could do.

But before I took the photos, I happened to read a news headline which seemed to say that Donald Trump was suggesting that NFL players who don’t stand for the ‘Anthem’ should be fired. I felt a wave of fury come over me. Isn’t this a flashback to the Hitler Regime? Doesn’t anyone see?

I’m not writing about politics though…I’m writing about the end of the old and the beginning of the new.

Thinking about this-firing NFL players because they don’t stand for the Anthem, I thought about how I never stand for the Anthem and I thought about how ever since I can remember, I have instinctively disliked the Pledge of Allegiance.  Why? I wasn’t a particularly rebellious kid, always got my homework done, liked school, liked learning.

This expresses how I felt when forced to say The Pledge of Allegiance in 2nd grade.me 1rst grade

So I looked up the words of the Anthem, The Pledge of Allegiance and a song I’ve always disliked, Onward Christian Soldiers. And I understood why even as a young child, I could not repeat these words.

THE PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE

” ….one nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all”  What does this mean….what about all the other nations? Are they not approved by God?

And “liberty and justice for all? REALLY?..where does that happen? Does anyone really believe that? Did the Native People feel this “liberty and justice for all” when the United States took their land, poisoned them with smallpox, herded them on to reservations?  These are just meaningless words that blind people to the Truth, sugar coat reality and the people repeat them like robots.

trail tears
“LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL”? ~ THE TRAIL OF TEARS “At the beginning of the 1830s, nearly 125,000 Native Americans lived on millions of acres of land in Georgia, Tennessee, Alabama, North Carolina and Florida–land their ancestors had occupied and cultivated for generations. By the end of the decade, very few natives remained anywhere in the southeastern United States. Working on behalf of white settlers who wanted to grow cotton on the Indians’ land, the federal government forced them to leave their homelands and walk thousands of miles to a specially designated “Indian territory” across the Mississippi River. This difficult and sometimes deadly journey is known as the Trail of Tears
THE STAR SPANGLED BANNER
“And the rocket’s red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there”
[WAR..ALWAYS ABOUT WAR AS IF IT’S SOMETHING TO BE REVERED?]
And this..what do these words mean? they’re ugly and repulsive…do you really want to sing words like this????
 “Their blood has washed out their foul footsteps’ pollution!
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight or the gloom of the grave”

~from THE STAR SPANGLED BANNER

ONWARD CHRISTIAN SOLDIERS

Onward Christian soldiers
Marching as to war..

[WAR AGAIN…I’M NO EXPERT BUT I ALWAYS THOUGHT JESUS WAS ABOUT PEACE?}

Onward, Christian soldiers, marching as to war
With the cross of Jesus going on before
Christ, the royal Master, leads against the foe
Forward into battle see His banners go

[AND WHO IS THE FOE/THE ENEMY? PEOPLE FROM OTHER RELIGIONS? THERE ARE  A LOT OF WORLD RELIGIONS..CHRISTIANITY IS ONLY ONE OF MANY…yes I know, people will claim they are marching against the devil but what is the devil but all this divisiveness they promote]

The time of separation is ending. For thousands of years, separation and divisiveness- the idea that one country is superior to another, that one race is superior, that one religion is the ONLY ONE  has caused more and more pain, unending wars, increasing, out of control hatred.

“I saw a New Heaven and a New Earth” A change is coming.

MY SELFIE/THE WOLF/HUMILITY

wolf selfie 2For my selfie, I put on my wolf hood that I sometimes wear in the winter. The wolf is my guiding spirit and I have 3 wolfdogs, 2 that I have rescued. If I could, I would surround myself with wolves…they are to me, the most beautiful of creatures but more than that:dakota winter window

For the Anishnabe People of Canada, the wolf represents Humility which they explain this way:

The teaching of humility is very important in our life. Much of the division we see in today’s world is because people have not understood the spirit of humility: to understand the spirit of humility is to understand that no one is above another human being. No one is greater than another human being in this life; no one is lesser than another human being.

To be humble is to see us equally in the eyes of the Great Spirit through the unconditional love of the Great Spirit. His love is expressed to all of us in the same way that the sun will shine on us. The sun does not choose to shine on any one person alone or any one race of people, it shines on all.

So in a way this is what this post is about. The Anthem/Star Spangled Banner is about the supposed superiority of one country- the United States..so also is The Pledge of Allegiance. And Onward Christian Soldiers is about the superiority of one religion-Christianity.

There is no understanding in their words that “no one is above another human being. No one is greater than another human being in this life; no one is lesser than another human being.

that: The sun does not choose to shine on any one person alone or any one race of people, it shines on all.

Below is a film clip from a documentary my son and I made called THE 8TH FIRE~One Earth, One Whole Circle Again.  Its message is what I have hoped to communicate in this post.

And Chief Crazy Horse’s Vision for these times:

“Upon suffering beyond suffering: the Red Nation shall rise again and it shall be a blessing for a sick world. A world filled with broken promises, selfishness and separations. A world longing for light again. I see a time of Seven Generations when all the colors of mankind will gather under the Sacred Tree of Life and the whole Earth will become one circle again.” ~Chief Crazy Horse 1840-1877

8th Fire – Njacko Backo clip from Andy Pickard on Vimeo.

 

Beyond Betrayal, the Phoenix Rises [“There is a Crack in EVERYTHING]

 There is a crack in every thing..that’s how the light gets in”
~Leonard Cohen/ANTHEM

 

I started writing this blog almost exactly 2 years ago..I don’t know why I started writing except that the work I had done for nearly 30 years was no longer possible and the blog seemed an opportunity to continue on in another way, and to make some sort of contribution.

So today I decided to look back..see where I was..where I am now-what have I learned in these 2 very difficult years. And I decided also to write about something that I purposely have not written about before..namely betrayal.

betrayal

I thought maybe if I wrote about it, I could move on, move beyond the feelings of anger and bitterness that overwhelm me at times.

I don’t want to go into the details except to say that I learned that ‘Your best friend can be your worst enemy’: Suddenly, seemingly out of nowhere and with no warning, my trusted friend and assistant for 30 years, a friend who I had often described as an angel, caused the downfall of almost everything I had worked for.  Somehow I guess I wasn’t paying attention to the signs along the way.betrayal trust

I searched for answers, tried to understand- talked to friends and people I had worked with, had my cards read always with the same message: BETRAYALheart betrayal

I have heard several spiritual teachers say that we should  look upon a situation..however unpleasant as if we had chosen it. So if we are here on Earth to learn certain things, pass certain tests, maybe I did choose the betrayal I experienced, maybe it was necessary for more understanding, humility, compassion …it must have been.

And so I entered into a time of overwhelming debt….I went from having $300, 000 in checking and savings to sometimes just $5.00 in checking, from easily paying my bills to having to default on everything, from being able to eat out whenever I wanted and buy whatever food I wanted [I never looked at prices] to sometimes having no food in the house except a few potatoes, a few eggs from the chickens, chard and kale from the greenhouse. It was a slow downhill slide because it took me a while to understand the extent of the damage that had been done.

As my life seemed to spin out of control, I couldn’t sleep, I was so afraid of being sued, terrified of being homeless. Eventually I had no choice but to sign up with a debt relief company. Most of my social security goes to pay off my debts and  I’ve had to learn to live on $600 a month.phoenix rise

So what did I learn or gain..what good has come out of this?

~Strength and Clarity that I didn’t have before

~  Incredible people who miraculously appeared and helped me pull through in various ways…my friends changed as some dropped away, some remained as new ones came in, creating I felt, a comforting circle of kindness and goodwill

~I learned to rise above those who judged me-whose words were sometimes cruel.. and also to rise above the advice givers—when you’re really down, the advice givers come out of nowhere like vultures……  those people who love to give advice but who would never be able to follow it themselves

~I learned to hold on to my visions against all odds

~I came to understand that the greatest gift we can give others is the gift of listening, really listening without judging, without interrupting

~I learned how little I really need

~I learned to take old things, rather than buying new things…..and give them new life..FUN!

*Besides listening to the spiritual teacher, Eckhart Tolle, what has helped me the most, these past 2 years, has been working on art projects. They have really helped calm me in the midst of ever present stress.

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BEFORE [not exactly the same freezer but similar]

diy-freezer-whole

AFTER

shelves with stuff 2

BEFORE

I never liked the color of the wall behind these shelves and thought I would  put a white glaze over the blue but I didn’t have money to do it. I discovered however that my daughter-in-law had left, along with some paints, a small bottle of copper glaze. I decided to try the copper glaze and it produced a miracle! I would never have tried it if I had been able to buy the white glaze.

glaze 2 nd shelf

AFTER

glaze:diamond

AFTER

I really like to drink wine but I hate to throw away the bottles–we don’t have recycling here…

Bouteille Bottle

BEFORE

jug-wine

BEFORE

The solution: Combining sea glass spray paint and acrylics, Jody [the Brown Piglet in this blog] turned these old bottles into beautiful art pieces.

morning blue bottle

AFTER

wine bottle-wolf

AFTER

~I learned a lot about natural medicine and its many uses. For nearly 30 years, I have not used any prescription drugs but I was using Advil PM to sleep. Because there was so little money, I discovered natural sleep remedies which worked much better than the Advil. And I began to see clearly the agenda of the pharmaceutical companies and the medical community, an agenda which revolves around money, power and fear….not healing.

THERE ARE SO MANY MIRACULOUS HEALING REMEDIES FOR ALMOST EVERYTHING AND THEY COST ALMOST NOTHING.jody's huge plant9everydayoils

~I learned to love pinto beans….beans are often all that we have but I never get tired of them…I have ODed on potatoes howeverpinto-beans

A few months ago when we had no bread of any kind, Jody found some flour, baking powder and oil and for the first time, made sopapillas. Since then he delivers them a couple times a week, to people in the community ..sopapillas

raven prepares to eat

and the Raven gets the leftovers.

~I learned humility when I couldn’t pay my bills, had to beg for extra time, when I had to ask for help and when I had to shop at the poorest grocery stores. Many times I’ve had to stop in the middle of shopping and count my change to see if I could afford something-butter, bread etc. At first I felt embarrassed but eventually I understood that I was just like everyone else….trying to survive

~I learned to live much more on Faith, live it rather than talk about it. I had to give up a lot of things I took for granted like having a cell phone. My truck is not in great shape and when I have to drive somewhere, I have felt afraid because what would I do if the truck breaks down. I was talking to a friend about this and he said “Remember when no one had a cell phone and we were fine?.” I remembered but still what would I do? “Someone will help you” my friend said …FAITH

SO WHERE AM I NOW?

pink chair:white roses

I’m tired and bruised and changed…but I feel like I somehow survived…. .

The words of this poem I love are relevant. I’m not really flying yet but I’m preparing  to [I hope!].

“Come to the edge,” he said.
“We can’t, we’re afraid!” they responded.
“Come to the edge,” he said.
“We can’t, We will fall!” they responded.
“Come to the edge,” he said.
And so they came.
And he pushed them.
And they flew.”
― Guillaume Apollinaire

 

When I wrote my first blog post 2 years ago, I included Leonard Cohen’s beautiful song, Anthem. “There is a crack in everything..that’s how the light gets in.”

And it’s so true-there is a crack in Everything. About 2 weeks before Hurricane Harvey devastated Houston, I sent out an email to a group of friends: I was trying to raise money for my solar batteries which were old and dying fast…meaning no electricity. I titled the email ‘The Tapestry’ because I had recently listened to Eckhart Tolle talking about how our lives are like a tapestry. Woven together in the tapestry are squares representing our health, our family, our relationships, our finances, our insurance, our investments etc, etc.– everything that seems to make our life work.

But suddenly and inevitably and sometimes violently, a piece of our tapestry is ripped out, leaving an empty and usually painful space: a child dies, you lose your job, you lose your home, you or a family member are diagnosed with a terminal illness.

And that’s how the light gets in…I have heard it so many times.

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
~Dr. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Below: a recipe for sopapillas and one for pinto beans. And Leonard Cohen’s Anthem

AND HERE IS MY BIG DREAM FOR TODAY: I haven’t been able to pay to take out the trash for over a year..it’s stored and out of the way but I need to get it out of here. I need about $200. If you want to contribute to my trash removal project, you can do so  here

As I’ve said before, these days this blog is my main contribution as the work I did for so many years is no longer possible. I do write for myself but as we’re all connected in some way, maybe some of what I write will be helpful to someone else.

For everyone who has helped me in the past, I thank you forever and ever!!!!!!!

Soon I will have new solar batteries and guaranteed electricity. Now to get rid of the trash, fix my truck and the journey continues.

~Cindy

PS Anyone who contributes will receive a gift in return: t-shirt, DVD, poster etc

Sopapilla Recipe

In a large bowl, sift together flour, baking powder and salt. Cut in shortening until mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Using hands, mix in water to make a smooth dough. Knead lightly on a floured surface. Cut dough into 12 pieces, and shape into round balls. Cover, and set aside.

  1. Heat oil in deep-fryer to 375 degrees F (190 degrees C).
  2. On a lightly floured surface, roll dough into thin circles. Cut each circle into triangles. Fry in hot oil, until golden brown, turning when dough puffs. Remove, and drain well on paper towels.

PINTO BEAN RECIPE

READY IN:

16hrs

SERVES:

8

YIELD:

6 cups

UNITS:

US

Ingredients Nutrition

 Directions
  1. Wash and pick over the beans, removing loose skins or shriveled beans.
  2. Put in a large covered pot and cover with hot water.
  3. Soak over night if you want to cut down on cooking time.
  4. When beans start to simmer add ham bone, salt pork or bacon.
  5. Add more water as needed but only hot or boiling water.
  6. Never add cold water the beans will turn dark.
  7. If you cook without a lid the beans will also turn a dark color.
  8. When the skins are almost as tender as the inside of the beans, they are done.
  9. They should not be broken.
  10. Add salt and allow to stand before serving.

Buy a T-SHIRT and Support a Wolfdog

buy t supprt wdA few years ago, my son and I made a documentary film called ON THE LAND ~Together with the Earth and Taos Pueblo artist, Jonathan Warm Day Coming created a t-shirt which communicates the message of the film.LAND TSHIRT:WALLon the land t back

For the back of the shirt, Jonathan chose his own message: The Earth will bring people from all walks of life togetheron_the_land_tshirt_back

I think we could see this happening recently in Houston as so many people from different cultures and walks of life…..came to help. The Hurricane, Nature, the Earth brought people together and offered a vision that reached around the world..of how life on earth could be.

WOLFDOG RESCUE

Last year we rescued 2 wolfdogs, Apollo and Sakina, as companions for our 2 year old wolfdog, Shiloh. We rescued them just a few days before they were scheduled to be killed.

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APOLLO

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Sakina, Shiloh , Roadie [Belgian Shepherd] and Apollo

Wolfdogs are not dogs, they do not behave like dogs and they require special care so many people who get them as puppies….shiloh-10-weeks because they are so cute

more often than not, find that they are unable to keep them…and so they are sent to a shelter where their life usually ends very quickly

.Wolfdogs are almost immediately put down/killed if they are sent to a shelter.

 

If you like to help support these most beautiful creatures, Shiloh, Apollo and Sakina–their care and feeding, YOU CAN order an ON THE LAND T-SHIRT HERE And you will not only help support a wolfdog, you will carry a message that is so much needed now: The Earth will bring people from all walks of life together.buy t supprt wdshiloh with roadie

*You can also, if you prefer make a donation. It’s been a difficult and challenging 2 years however I think the phoenix is rising.

Below is the story of the rescue of Sakina, our female, very low content, wolfdog. The people who planned to keep her, could not and so she was sent here. Also below is the trailer for our documentary, ON THE LAND ~Together with the Earth

*Featured image photo of Shiloh, photo of ‘the pack’ and photo of Shiloh and Apollo by Karen Yeager

On The Land ~ trailer 1 from Andy Pickard on Vimeo.

on_the_land_DVDYou can order a copy of ON THE LAND here.

 

Stewart Comes to Visit/Let it Be

Night before last, kind of late, I got an email from a friend saying he was coming through this area on his way south and wondered if he could spend the following night. He isn’t someone I know very well–stewart glasses                                             Stewart Warren is his name

I met him at the Ojo Caliente Spa several years ago when he was the IT Manager there and all I could remember about that time was how he read one his poems to me in the parking lot.

Stewart is however, a close friend of some friends of mine in Mountainair, New Mexico and he and I have kind of kept in touch by email. About a year ago when I was at a very low point and in deep despair, Stewart sent me an encouraging email which was so meaningful to me that I printed it out and for a year, kept it right next to my computer.

I didn’t want to hurt his feelings by telling him he couldn’t stay but I was SO tired, we had almost no food in the house and both me and my partner, Jody [the Brown Piglet in this blog] were going through our own emotional traumas.

So I didn’t answer the email but rather tried to come up with something to tell Stewart as to why he couldn’t spend the night. For hours I obsessed about this. To get my mind off of it, I watched a DVD from the spiritual teacher Eckhart Tolle called Freedom From The World.

In the DVD, Eckhart was talking about the mind which constantly chatters and makes up stories..and he was talking about surrender. Like almost all the great spiritual teachers, Eckhart’s message is ‘Don’t think’.

Finally I thought, I cannot go on obsessing like this all night. I have to stop thinking about what to say and so I attempted to go to sleep and I did…. finally.

When I woke up exhausted in the morning, I told Jody about Stewart. Part of my reason for not wanting Stewart to stay was because I thought he and Jody would not like each other and it would be very uncomfortable.jody gate-la paz-prison copyJody is Hispanic, has a lot of tattoos, spent quite a bit of time in prison and jail when he was younger and spent very little time in school. Stewart on the other hand, is Anglo, a poet, well educated, would never have a tattoo [I thought] and would be unlikely to be in any way sympathetic [I thought] to someone who has lived the sort of life Jody has.

But surprisingly Jody told me “It’s fine, tell him to come” So I did, Stewart arrived and from the time he got out of his car, I realized I had been wrong about EVERYTHING. He brought with him a wonderful presence of grace, kindness, appreciation and acceptance. Most people who come here comment on the beauty of the place but Stewart noticed and appreciated everything: all the work we’ve done, glaze 2 nd shelfhobbiton:phantom 2what he called entertain w: wine bottles‘the sacred spaces’, maryrosesarchthe shrines, the animals, Jody’s art and most of all he appreciated Jody. They were able to understand each other on some soul level where race, culture, education etc don’t matter. Jody was needing some encouragement and understanding and Stewart offered this.

And they had some life events in common that I would never have imagined. Plus I think Stewart actually has a tattoo.

Earlier in the summer, we had a somewhat similar experience. A friend from Arizona came to stay for a few days and she brought her husband Don who has Alzheimers. Don was often confused and struggled with words but it seemed that when there was something that really mattered, he understood perfectly. Before he left I gave him one of our Native American designed hoodies. eagle-hoodiecabinbrightOn the back there is an explanation of what the Eagle means to the First Nations People and Don slowly read it to me “The Eagle brings a vision of LOVE that helps us see how we should walk in love and sacredness on Mother Earth. ALWAYS ACT IN LOVE.”

“That’s right” he said “That’s how it should be.”

When he and his wife left, there were tears in his eyes. “I don’t want to leave” he said. You all feel like family.”

At the soul level, everything is understood.

Stewart didn’t stay overnight–he had forgotten that he needed to get to Albuquerque for an appointment.. All my obsessing and losing sleep were for nothing.

This morning when I was drinking my coffee with the Brown Piglet, the Beatles song Let it Be’ came on the radio and I realized ‘Yeah, that’s right..just let it be.  Let everything just BE… Everything and there will be an answer.’

mary:mother's day:grotto

“I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be”

~Let it Be/The Beatles

Below is Let it Be Live from the Beatles and a poem Stewart Warren wrote about this area years ago. Stewart Warren’s author page on AMAZON.

*If you have found this blog helpful in some way, Please make a contribution. This blog is my particular way of contributing: by hopefully passing on the wisdom of the many teachers I spent time with and learned from: Dr. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, addictions counselor, John Bradshaw, near death survivor Dannion Brinkley and Anishnabe Elder, Dave Courchene as well as many hospice patients and Elders that were part of my life.
A few years ago I experienced a huge betrayal which changed my work and my life. I learned that ‘your best friend can be your worst enemy’ and I lost a lot: my job, my salary and I could no longer do the work I had planned to do. Looking for a way to continue, I started this blog. Part of my story is here and this is also where you can make a contribution https://www.gofundme.com/poohsrainbow
As we are all in some way connected in this life, I sincerely thank you for your help-big or small..it doesn’t matter..
Cindy Pickard  fonehome@indian-creek.ne

 

stewart-ocate

Longing for Purity, for the Snow, the Cold…and the Light that Fills the World!

I think over again my small adventures
my fears
those small ones that seemed so big

For all the vital things
I had to get and to reach

And yet there is only one great thing
the only thing

To live to see the great day that dawns
and the light that fills the world.

~Old Inuit Song

I have started to write something several times this past week but then came Hurricane Harvey and I got caught up in watching the footage. I lived in Houston for many years-not happily but I lived there.

I read that a newscaster was criticized for calling the hurricane and the devastation that followed ‘biblical’. Of course it was/is biblical…the ancient prophecies of all religions are being fulfilled NOW. I read too, that a man unable to get gas in San Antonio, Texas [there have been long lines and some gas shortages] made the statement “Well this is it..the end of the World.”

It’s a difficult time to be living on this Earth….so much has been destroyed and rampant corruption, insanity, violence and ugliness, fear and terror have become an accepted way of life.

I remember reading a book years ago called Border Healing Woman. JEWEL BABBIt is the true story of an old woman, living down near the Texas/ Mexico border. She-her name was Jewel Babb- was a natural healer and she was able to see the future. One statement that she made, I’ve never forgotten. It went something like this “In the times that are to come, it will take the faith of all the saints to survive.” These are the times she spoke of.

“Once I was in Victoria, and I saw a very large house.
They told me it was a bank and that the white men place their
money there to be taken care of, and
that by and by they got it back with interest.

“We are Indians and we have no such bank; but when we
have plenty of money or blankets, we give them away to
other chiefs and people, and by and by they return them
with interest, and our hearts feel good. Our way of giving is our bank.”

Chief Maquinna, Nootka

When I was watching the hurricane footage on my computer..usually on ABC, a commercial always came on beforehand..over and over and over. This commercial was filmed at a gym and featured an especially unattractive, arrogant woman in gym clothes. This woman was directing other women to find the ‘perfect exercise’ for her. This apparently was her top priority in life. The intent of this commercial was to inspire people to use a particular travel search engine but instead it verified the fact that we are living in the most selfish, self centered, materialistic and out of touch society that has ever existed. The image of this arrogant woman with her demands for the perfect exercise contrasted with the film footage of terrified people being rescued from rooftops, knowing they had lost everything is burned into my mind forever.

I am very lucky to be able to live far out in the countryNorte_mountains…..far from any city, off the grid.. karen-shiand surrounded by our animal family.

But today I cannot find peace. All day I have looked forward to the evening and to watching [again] one of my favorite movies, Never Cry Wolf…. I think because of the purity which is represented not only by the landscape but also by the lifestyle..so far from civilization, surrounded only by the beauty of the Arctic and its creatures, mainly the Arctic Wolf.

And Never Cry Wolf is a reminder for me of the time I spent with the First Nations People of Canada. With my son, I made 3 documentary films there, in Saskatchewan and in Manitoba and I long to go back but I cannot. I want to go back to the teachings and a lifestyle that I understand, back to simplicity and laughter, back to the sound of the drum and to the Sacred Fire……back to The Light That Fills The World’

Final Scene from NEVER CRY WOLF

In the Ojibwey language: “The Old People Say ‘The Earth is About To Change.'”

If you’re still in doubt that The Earth Is About To Change, here are today’s headlines-September 3, 2017:

~Hurricane Harvey’s trail of carnage visible even from space
~Danger persists at Arkema chemical plant in Crosby as more explosions expected
~19 wildfires burn in California
~Hurricane watches posted as Irma moves west
~Trump says ‘we’ll see’ about attacking North Korea after announcement of h-bomb test

And so it is….these are the times when we will need to help each other out if we are to survive. I am fortunate to live in an old world rural community where helping each other out has been the way forever…the way life is meant to be.

Below is a little slideshow I made about our way of life here in northern New Mexico

*If you have found this blog helpful in some way, please make a contribution. This blog is my particular way of contributing: by hopefully passing on the wisdom of the many teachers I spent time with and learned from: Dr. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, addictions counselor, John Bradshaw, near death survivor Dannion Brinkley and Anishnabe Elder, Dave Courchene as well as many hospice patients and Elders that were part of my life.
A few years ago I experienced a huge betrayal which changed my work and my life. I learned that ‘your best friend can be your worst enemy’ and I lost a lot: my job, my salary and I could no longer do the work I had planned to do. Looking for a way to continue, I started this blog. Part of my story is here and this is also where you can make a contribution https://www.gofundme.com/poohsrainbow
As we are all in some way connected in this life, I sincerely thank you for your help.
Cindy Pickard  fonehome@indian-creek.net